.codesamurai

Funny how the stars look far away
And it makes me sad, to be surrounded
There's not much else that I can do to change
But in my dreams I see you dying

The world keeps going round
With the sun and the moon
And you and I are somehow inbetween

We are hopelessly waiting
For the sky to fall down
I put my hands up
Don't look around

Sometimes we can forget just who we are
Sometimes it's hard, to look around you
We seem to move, but never very far
And I don't know why I care about it

yeah, art may imitate life
but life imitates t.v.
'cuz you've been gone exactly two weeks
two weeks and three days
and let's just say that things look different now
different in so many ways

i used to be a superhero
no one could touch me
not even myself
you are like a phone booth
i somehow stumbled into
and now look at me
i am just like everybody else

if i was dressed in my best defenses
would you agree to meet me for coffee
if i did my tricks with smoke and mirrors
would you still know which one was me
if i was naked and screaming
on your front lawn
would you turn on the light and come down
screaming, there's the asshole
who did this to me
stripped me of my power
stripped me down

i used to be a superhero
no one could touch me
not even myself
you are like a phone booth
i somehow stumbled into
and now look at me
i am just like everybody else

There are days when you feel so damn lucid, like everything you do will not block you. Those days when you're able to call off all egotistical restraint and just be who the hell you are inside and not apologize anybody for not being nice. Today is one those days, every action seems to just connect not immediately but it snaps together eventually without even trying so damn hard. I love days like these, and I know tomorrow will be just like this because I'm tearing down the stops one by one. I'll break all walls until I am finally who I am meant to be.

It's really over again huh? That's funny because it didn't really feel like a year. It felt more like a month or two. Pretty soon it will start feeling like weeks then days. I wonder if this is how all immortals feel, devoid of the passage of time. It actually feels like the 90's or maybe just early 2000's when I've just graduated. In any case, I've wished time would slip by faster when I was still in school I wonder how it happened to happen but I'm actually starting to hate it. Hate it so much in fact that as I'm spelling hate I almost started it with an S. At least I don't have to watch the clock to hit 5:30 anymore, all I have to do is sit down look at the monitor be bugged by subordinates, call meetings, and suddenly it's quittin time. Oh and happy new year, may 2009 be slower.

It's time for the obligatory monthly post. This past few weeks have been uneventful and I'm probably playing that up. And so I'll just post a picture of me posting this entry so that I'll at least amuse myself when I look at this entry.

There's something about fighting morons on the internet that gives me immense pleasure, the smarter they think they are the harder and more humiliating it would be for them once I deliver a finishing blow. I wouldn't imagine saying what I've said to those I actually know in real life to those poor saps who probably cried all the way home in shame after each devastating hit I gave them. I know, I know, debates online is like the special olympics, even if you win you're still retarded. But fighting on the internet is helluvalot of fun, friends are for real life, internet is for kicking ass. Fuck yeah!

time is still streaming past like bullets going in the opposite direction of a train. i thought this would be over by now. when will it stop. i missed her again. it hurt. so i distract myself. i'm easily distracted but when i'm alone it's harder. so thank god for torrents and mega packs. hd is cool, can't believe i nearly missed it. wii is great but hd should not be missed. i will own in tekken 6. those bastards will all crumble beneath my feet. really. but i'll have to wait for gamefaqs. i need to kick ass on a tournament level game. maybe i'll make a comeback on starcraft 2. who knows? zileas did, the funky god of protoss air from mit. i don't think he was big in warcraft 3 though. probably busy making zerglings of his own. rehydrate. replenish. refuel. 80 sheets * 11" x 8 7/8" perforated. ribbed for her pleasure. official sports drink of the nba.

I'm beginning to think that I should start calling people idiots when they are actually being idiots. I've been trying to be nice all my life and failing miserably, I don't think I'll be an ass or a jerk but I'll be more honest about my opinions on idiotic fuckheads who rant on thinking they know everything. I'd probably have field day with myself.